I officially quit my job. Or I tried. Maybe you didn't even know I was working? Well a couple weeks before my maternity leave began, my boss asked me if I'd be interested in working from home (because I had made it clear that I didn't want to send Maddie to childcare, so I was probably not going to return). Sounded like a great opportunity to keep myself challenged and make a little extra money on the side. So six weeks after Maddie was born, I started working from home. Nothing crazy, but 5-10 hours a week. Problem was, I wasn't enjoying it. And at times stressed out. I felt burdened to work during Maddie's irregular naps when I really just wanted to read or make dinner or actually shower. Sometimes I'd get up early on a Saturday morning to get some time in. Matt doesn't really care if I work. Thankfully we are blessed and agree to sacrifice some things for me to stay home. So after MUCH prayer and debate, I decided to call it quits. Matt said it could be a birthday present to myself. I went in to give my notice. Then they offered me an even better scenario. Why don't I take a couple months off for the summer and if things get less crazy, I can start up again. Seriously? God is good. Perfect situation. I feel blessed to have them so flexible with me - I know that doesn't happen often.
Anyways, since that happened just a couple days ago, I feel relief. Like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. And I guess as a celebration, I realized my craftiness bug has been building up. And Maddie took an unusually long nap today. Of course all was made with materials I have in my "craft bin", because a quick trip to the store doesn't happen anymore.
I first made this to hang in this empty space we've had in our kitchen. I was reminded of this quote from Jim Elliot recently and I feel like it's so fitting. Especially since Matt and I just found out that it's going to be another couple years in Alaska. So often (especially in Matt's current work situation) I live dreaming of what/where we'll be one day. I look forward to being closer to family and old friends, but I'm actually overwhelmed with contentment about staying. And by all means, I want to be living all here not wishing it away.